Sunday, September 28, 2008
[an update]
Listening to: - Labels: packing/travelling, the smaller things in the bigger world (:, tired
Feeling: sleepy
Thinking of: -
i'm in UK already. all's safe.
travel blog found here: http://20secondsaroundtheworld.blogspot.com
yep. night all!
Friday, September 5, 2008
[all my bags are packed/]
Listening to: leaving on a jet plane - chantal kreviazuk finally! --- shit. im gonna miss so many people. :( Labels: emo, family, Hall, happpy, love, mestuff, packing/travelling, the smaller things in the bigger world (:
Feeling: excited!
Thinking of: my european sky!
Friday, August 29, 2008
[My friend the communist, holds meetings in his office/]
Listening to: become - googoodolls okayyyyy. I promised this entry so I must make it niceeee. =) I was looking for a bag to bring onboard the plane, to carry my barang and basically for school and day trips to cool exotic english cities. :) I was considering getting a crump.ler since my younger brother said it was a good investment. (he carries a damn XL) then, a very cute little voice started talking about going-green and loving the environment. (Suddenly, I felt like I was back at deyiss, where lesterwee would go on forever about the environment. lol). that little voice also yakked abt how crump.ler is some big mega-eco-unfriendly-corporation that was out to suck money from gullible humans like me. Labels: family, life, love, packing/travelling, rumbo/raiko, smiles, tired
Feeling: better
Thinking of: my pretty new bag
so that little voice rattled on, introducing me to something cooler, friendlier, BOMB-proof, cut-proof, biking-friendly, and BIG-ASS big and cheaper too... after a hearty lunch at IKEA and 10 mins at that tiny little shop in alexandra road....
I TIMBUK2-ED!
and that little voice cudn't resist temptation.
it ended up buying a pencilcase
that matched my new baby! :)
and guess who this little voice is! :)
yes.... it's PHUA HUISHI!!!! :D
and I'm a terribly loved and happy girl. :)
love (:
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Listening to: flying without wings - westlife Labels: emo, family, Hall, mestuff, packing/travelling
Feeling: blank
Thinking of: -
just yesterday, I was feeling good about everything again. spent a day with hweeshee/huishi running around buying stuff for the trip and going around in the city centre and talking. the girl made me feel so loved. I felt so much better and a bit more positive about everything. I met my roomie too and I realised that I've got most of my things in place.
but this morning, I woke up, realising that the money's not in yet; then I read some things that make me just wanna curl up and fly now. I really can't wait to go. I dread everything here.
I feel like there's no more life for me here. at least not for now.
I'm gonna miss my family like crazy but other than that, I can't wait to go. I really can't.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
[too bad but it's the life you lead/]
Listening to: vienna - billy joel Labels: family, packing/travelling, pensive, people, smiles, the smaller things in the bigger world (:, turning 21
Feeling: thoughtful
Thinking of: things priscilla said to me.
tonight was jac's bday party and the 2fab gang met up. the same old jokes, reused again but the laughter always similarly loud and refreshing. I felt happy seeing them but then it has slowly begun to hit me that I am really finally on my way out of this country.
I keep telling people that 4 and half months are going to fly by and that it really is a short time; but it's beginning to hit me that I've never been away from my family for that long before. and sending ju off, spending time with jac and huishi this week also made me realise that I'm really going to miss alot of people while i'm there alone too.
but then, that being said, I really can't wait to start this next chapter. I've always felt like I shortchanged myself after A levels. everyone around me found a way to go overseas and experience some kind of education that I never got to. I mean, don't get me wrong. I loved my NUS life and I still love it. I had a blast in year 1 and 2. it's just that this place always kinda felt very small.
like there was so much more life and the world had to offer and I always, in a way, resented not being able to experience that. I remember some time last year, I had a conversation with xiaoqing about how small singapore is and how sheltered my life has been here; and how much I wanted to go out there and experience the world.
I kept thinking about my swiss trip in '02 and I'll always remember just how amazing the whole feeling of being in switzerland was. the weather, the people, the culture, the smells. and the feeling of waking up at 5 am so that I can strut the Bernese streets at 6, with the crisp cold air blowing against my face and the fresh smell of the early bakery. oh and the lovely snow too. just looking at the mountains - white and freshly-snowed-upon, I was speechless. and I still am.
I've never seen more beauty in my life and there and then, I knew one day I had to get out. to see more of the world than what I knew of it. there's no point championing traveller's IQ if I never got to stand at mercy of these places' beauty. and now...
2 saturdays from today, I'd be in London. paying my guts out in sterling pound, walking around wrapped up in sunglasses, boots and jeans, and feeling the cold gritty cobblestoned(cobblestones!!) floor of the English land beneath my feet.
that being said, I am in limbo right now. My feelings are so mixed that i'm tired already just by thinking how much I need to sort out. Pris was talking to me earlier tonight and I realised that in a way, perhaps what I am feeling is post-hall blues or pre-departure blues. there's just a huge sense of blankness before me now.
I don't know where to go or what to do with my life before I fly. I want to fly soon but I feel so unprepared. I feel random things all day long but I don't know who to tell them to or what to say even. I miss people but I also don't want to see many people. sometimes, I think friendship is really hard work.
and the harder you try, sometimes people just forget that you still exist.
like I said, i think it's gotta do with the fact that I've got no school right now.
but I think it's also true that nothing in life is permanent. people may mean amazing things to you at one point in your life and just a few months down the road, things will change no matter how much you had meant to keep in touch. It's beginning to be really hard for me to believe in anything that will last.
yet when i see that one singular maple leaf fall out of my '02 diary after six years and 10340km, there has got to be something that will last somewhere, somehow, right?
I don't know how to say what I feel now. I am afraid of becoming stupid because I haven't written an essay in damn long. but on the other hand, I can't wait to get to loughborough and really study literature in an environment where so many wonderful writers got their inspirations from. I can't wait to hear these amazing people spout poetry and cast beauty on everything I see.
shakespeare's house, modern theatre, film history, home to quaint little cottages where narnian children become kings and queens and knights, century-old castles where medieval princes saved fair-headed princesses from dragons and monsters, and the english renaissance.. suddenly, everything I've learnt will come alive.
even enid blyton will become a form of literature - an art of keeping the magic alive in a place where cute sweet shops still exist with their jars of jelly beans, milk gums and peppermint drops lined up nicely on the window sill.
and that's only england.
sheessh. I'm really quite scared. but I'm definitely psyched. =)
Friday, August 22, 2008
[~!@#$%^&*()P_]
Listening to: family noises Labels: family, growing up, pissed
Feeling: pissed off
Thinking of: why this bullshit has to happen every bloody time.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
[packing nightmare!]
Listening to: bu neng shuo de mi mi - jay chou Labels: life, mestuff, packing/travelling, stones and senseless things
Feeling: super fulll
Thinking of: my procrastinating power
OKAY. I'VE HAD IT WITH ME. ritchell choong. stop watching tv. stop slacking and startttttt packing and buying stuff and freaking do your paper work. AND STOP GOING OUT WITH PEOPLE. you're going away for 4 months not 4 years. Bloody dumbass.
-sulks-
things to do:
1) buy insurance from uncledavid.
2) call Uncle tony to settle London accommodation
3) confirm with yanneng about staying over
4) claim insurance from em-oh-yi
5) buy tickets for paris-switzerland trip
6) Buy travellers' cheques, change money
7) make bank draft for accommodation payment
things to buy:
1) thermal wear
2) sleeping bag (warmer one)
3) waterproof shoes
4) collect jeans
5) book for aeroplane read
things to pack:
EVERYTHING.
okay. die. how am I going to squeeze one damn room in 1 suitcase, 1 backpack and 1 hand carry??!
=(